Devil's Prada 7th / Nothing is forever & forever is a lie.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

& I don't need lies from you

to make me feel special

my math teacher is freaky. freaky in the frightening and weird way. like seriously, having math teacher with major mood swings (& her preternatural appearances) is not fun at all. "i will WHACK you on the head NICELY". oh pleaseeeeeee, can you stop freaking the shit out of people ? i almost wanted to cry during math leasson can. my palms turned like incredibly cold. ohmigod everyone was like uh, flabbergasted ?

alright, enough with the horror story :] okay i've self-reflected. i seriously need to start mugging now. i mean at least for every single upcoming tests (especially maths). this term's PPR is gonna suck like hell. i've calculated and the minimun point i can get for this term is 20plusplus, considering the fact that my Amaths dropped from an A1 to C6 and that i'll probably gonna fail combine humans. RAHH OHMIGOD LEELINGJ, i hate to say this but- YOU REALLY NEED TO PULL UP YOUR SOCKS. okay so anyw, got back discussion essay and P&C today. both were fine, i guess. but i'm so gonna fail Lit, the unseen poetry i mean. RAHHHHH

okay i think this is all i'm gonna blog for today. i need to go batheeeeeeee. might be watching Norbit with congycongcong tmr & shopping with Cinch and Loulouthepoo on Sunday ! but i still need to mug for the five f3ugbfiwbgvweugbvwerg83igvi test next week. shall blog about Genting & post spastic pictures in the next post instead :)

when the broken hearts are mended and
the many tears are dried ; you learn.
you see that the world doesn't end,
just because you think it will.
and you learn that sometimes growing up
really does mean letting go.
you learn what real love is.
you begin to see that one friend who
really cares is better than a hundred who don't.
you learn that you can be strong if you just
take every thing day by day
and that you'll survive through every sad moment
if you just go step by step
so just feel the pain, and cry the tears,
and go out and fully experience life.
but when you're at the end of your rope,
and you're ready to jump off the ledge,
just remember that heartaches always fade,
and pain always subsides
and although life seems too tough to handle sometimes,
it's too much of a precious gift
to even think about wasting it.
so keep on living, never give up,
and remember: as you grow, you also learn. Y

| Lingjing , 10:29 PM
Monday, February 12, 2007

Within you I lose myself. Without you,

I find myself wanting to be lost again.

HIIIIIIIIIII :] just came back from tuition which was so-so. haha as usual i felt like dying and i think Calculas is fun ! anyway, school was fine today. was doing Maths for like almost the entire day cause of the stupid P&C test in the afternoon. which was quite okay (except for the last question yucks, stares at Andrea) hahahah. oh and i ate Mai Ya Tang for lunch :] yumhums. i love Cong cause she gave me Maiyatang & stickers ! teeheehee. so school ended with the photo-taking thing. it was quite weird like seriously. we had to sit on some act-cool-white-chairs which were zZZzzZzZz. anyway i was laughing like mad, vibrating all the way. okay i shall skip the tuition part :) after tuition went to Takashimaya with Charm and family. haha she went to get Levis jeans which were nice :D oh Levis has lovely changing rooms. Twinnie should really eat more cause she looks the same in Boot Cut and Flare Cut. too thin too thin. she's so think you cannot see her anymore ! hahahah. anyway we had fun in the changing room hoho :D

haha see that pair of bamboo legs up there ? hee hee. uhhh okay so after some shopping, went home ! so now i'm here blogging. since the nine o'clock show isn't ending, i shall blog about yesterday and yesyesterday yay ! (super aliteration)

so this was how yesyesterday went :]

hahaha i stole this from Andreaaaaaa's blog :) spent the whole of Saturday with Andrea doing crazy stuff. got most of the Vday stuff from Ikea. sheesh ! i'm starting to get a little excited for Vday yay. anyway haha took a lot, A LOT of crazy pictures. i think we were madddd. but everything goes crazy with Andrea. i love my crazy HAH HAH crush <3>

okay so let me recall what happened yesterday. i didn't take any pictures :( haha. ohkay, had Three Rocks outing with the rocking three ! walked like practically the WHOLE of Far East Plaza (yet again) and Lingjing is very sad cause she only bought one top. which was quite nice but inappropriate for New Year. and i realised that YINGQI TAKES FOREVER TO CHANGE hah. haha okay tried on like numerous tops and dresses AND shoes. but there was nothing really nice :( oh but Yings was like super happy cause she bought a lot of stuff. okay she bought a lot of shoes. like three pairs ! tsk tsk tsk. oh and Loulou finally got her jacket, all thanks to Subway :) okay so after exploring Far East, we went down to Plaza Sing to get clip ons. yay ! haha okay i love Three Rocks shopping. i get to bully them :] &&amp;&&&&& i really want a dress. hmpf, i shall go sew one myself !

Thou shall go read Macbeth now. What? Can the devil speak true? haha i think Malcom is weird. his name sounds like Macbeth. haheeho, byebye :)

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in.
- Goo goo dolls

| Lingjing , 9:25 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007

Take these broken wings

& learn to fly

i've always thought i could handle such things well and that i am able to get over things so quickly that at the end of the day, i don't feel anything at all. however today, i realised i was wrong since the very beginning. i was never good at this.

i didn't expect myself to get a three. i just didn't see that coming. it was so shocking that i took around a minute to realise i've actually gotten a three. and i think i'm gonna take quite long to accept that. ohmigod i can actually picture my brother mocking at me right now, telling me how stupid i am to even dare get a B3 for chinese. i wonder how much will the truth hurts; cause imagination is really killing me right now.

anyway, i would never have pull through this day without all my friends. they are like the only reason why i didn't allow myself to accidentally fall off my class balcony. here's a big Thank you to all those who've been trying hard to cheer me up and those who've lend me their shoulders to cry on. and to those whom i've promised to stay strong, do not worry cause i'll definitely be okay by tomorrow :) haha i guess at times, things happen in our lives which tear us apart inside but we've got to learn to look past them. i'm still in the midst of mastering the art of "letting go"and honestly, it doesn't look as easy as it may seem. yeah. okay, so today hasn't really been my day. and to all those who's day was like mine: cheer up :D, tomorrow will be a better day.

there comes a time when life goes off course & in this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. will you fight to stay on the path ? will you let others tell you who you are, or will you label yourself ? will you be haunted by your choice, or will you embrace your new path ? each morning, you choose to either move foreward, or to simply give up. this time, i choose to move on because giving up just isn't one of my options anymore.

haha okay so i'm actually starting to feel normal now. i guess that few hours of sleep did neutralise that sting which i had. haha. i'm gonna reply all my messages now since i'm finally in the right state of mind. teehee. okay, oh one last thing. I HOPE TMR'S WORKSHOP WILL BE OKAY :] hee, byebye.

Timeaquare can't shine as bright as you do.

| Lingjing , 9:41 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007

Pulling myself together

just to fall once more

having your body temperature fluctuating from 39.8 to 38.2 then back to 39.5 really sucks. oh btw the temperature now is 38.3 HAHAHAHA. rocks. was suppose to help Loulou collect her stuff at Novena but cause of the fever, i couldn't go. ohmigod i thought i was about to die. i could barely move my limbs and hardly breathe. actually the temperature was 39.4 then i called my Dad and he asked me to eat the fever panadol. so i decided not to cause i wanted to see how high my temperature could go. how pro right. so it rose all the way to 39.8 that was when i decided to save myself. hahaha okay. so i called Lou and told her that i couldn't help her to collect her stuff. after that i just slept. i practically slept my whole day away. haha then Lou came over at around 3plus after her voice. anyw for more information, please visit http://www.paranoidd.blogspot.com :)

i am so gonna sue the stupid doctor if my fever doesn't go way tmr. i'm gonna make him eat my medicines rah

this is LOUJEANNETAN in my retro skirt. haha its really great to have company when you're sick and all :)

"Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred. How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men into war, hoping for their safe return. But knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?" -One Tree Hill.

| Lingjing , 8:55 PM

Sometimes you need to give your heart

what it truly deserves

There are millions of people in your life, but in the end, it all comes down to one. I still panic, and sometimes i forget to breathe. But i know there's something beautiful in all my imperfections. It's a beauty which is held up for me to see. It's a strength that can never be taken away.

so to the people out there who's been struggling with their hearts lately, do stay strong.

haha hello world ! blogger was down yesterday, depriving me of blogging. anyw I HATE PIMPLES (seriously who loves them, eww), especially the one on my nose. oh no correction, the big fat swollen red one on my nose. yuck yuck, i just want to squeeze it so badly. ohkay maybe i should start using T3 or something hahahah. oh and guess what i've just broke my own personal record by visiting the doctor twice within two weeks. well maybe its not that great but considering the fact that i seldom fall sick, its an event worth celebrating :] haha okay so today has been quite a smooth day, i guess. it was quite slack really. oh today is the last day of KEY PRESS DUTY :) hurray which means byebye to waking up at 6am in the morning and to standing outside the key holder before and after school guarding keys ! haha but it wasn't that bad actually, i mean it was not really that tough haha and i had fun too in someway or another. but i still look forward to non-key press duty days :) oh and Kaixin has been a really great partner and so was Andrea (winks) ! haha okay back to my sick story. so i have 2 sets of medicine to consume now. yuck i doubt i will. i'll just flush the ones for stomach down the toilet bowl, haha it taste like shit anyw :]

i feel like watching One tree hill now. i shall go search for season 4 on Youtube. AH I DON'T LIKE LEYTON >:( haha okay, bye :]

& the best revenge is a vow to never be like the one who hurt you.

| Lingjing , 12:07 AM